Heartsounds

Lyrics

I’ve been pulling scars
from my skin’s surface
just to see if they’d heal up pretty
after bleeding again.
I’ve got more hope for
fresh wounds than old flaws
that just remind and remind.
I can’t stop.
Don’t look at me.
You can’t stop.

Is this wrong?
Each time I socialize I feel like I do it
just to get through it.
Is there more to it?
Nothing gets through to me.
I don’t like myself
enough to be your friend.

I’ve been binging on time.
But somehow I am heaving dry.
It doesn’t add up.
Today is already the past
of what’s to come.

Is this wrong?
Each time I sleep at night I feel like I do it
just to get through it.
Is there more to it?
I am not satisfied.
I try to orient myself
by looking to the sunrise.

I’ve been binging on time.
But somehow I am heaving dry.
It doesn’t add up.
Today is already the past
of what’s to come.
These coordinates are
spinning and spinning
too fast.
I can’t coordinate
myself anywhere.

My virtues were stolen from
their beds last night.
I thought I had them
tucked in tight.
Time isn’t money;
it’s chump change.
I keep it around;
The sound it makes reminds
me of my bad habits.