Every Time I Die

Lyrics

i should have drown in the flood with the rest. i had the chance. the current was pitiless and proof of man was wiped from the face of earth. the song, the dance. i should have gone with it. alas, i'm stranded alone in the wake. now i have lost all sight of the grave. when did i ever say that i want to be saved? i can see for miles but it don’t look the same. when no road has been paved go up. now how am i gonna get down? i want a slow death wrought from the dregs. “i want to be sedated”, just like joey said. i want the heaviest heart. i have eaten my weight in gold. i can see only what i’m shown up here. but in the coals with common men who yearn for ordinary things love cannot find us. so get out of my way. i got out of my own way. better a tramp than a captive. better alone than lonely with all these “friends”. what in the fuck am i doing here? why did the rapture not take me in? it is my curse to carry on. i should have died when i was young. i should still be burning lung. if i had known what i’d become, i should have drown in the flood with the rest. i had the chance, but here i am.